Ugh...this week...
This week...I do not like...
This week...I need to be over...
This week we packed...
I packed my husband's ruck sack, to prepare him for a world away from our home.
A scary world.
This week has been like some dream I'm dreaming...and I'm just waiting to wake up.
Monday we spent a good part of the day packing.
With helpers included.
Justin was teasing Traceon with his neck pillow. For some reason Trace did not like this thing...it totally freaked him out!
Monday night we hung........
Not wanting the next day to come.
Pretending that it did not exist.
Monday was surreal.
Mitch Slayden at our house, pretending along with us.
6: 30 a. m. Tuesday morning.
I was close to vomiting every second that passed.
My SGT Polson.
The hangar was just pure torture. But still we pretended...and did it pretty well.
Aydan hung on to his dad like this for awhile.
Justin and David. David is a cousin of the family that is being deployed also.
Us, Art, and Jen.
Justin, Kylar, and Garrett.
Our nephews Collin and Kylar dressed up all in camo, to support their hero; Uncle Justin!
Justin, Art, and Garrett.
Aydan and my dad Mike.
Jen, Justin, and their Aunt Gayle.
Us and my family.
Us, and Justin's family.
Justin and Garrett with their boys.
I have a Hero,
I call him Dad.
I love this man with every ounce of my being. He is the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me. I believe in him, and he believe's in me. It's going to be rough without him.
Giving hugs and kisses, until next time.
As much as I HATE these pictures of our Aydan with his daddy....I LOVE the story they tell.
Aydan loves his daddy so much, and his daddy loves him. Love like that is such a blessing. Love like that moves mountains. The love that we share for our little family is amazing. Love is going to guide us through.
Justin standing in formation, waiting to be called.
And he came back to me...for one last moment...until the next wonderful moment. I will forever remember this moment, and how I felt.
The brilliant mixture of emotions running through my body.
Proud.
The most unbelievable love for a person ever.
Scared.
Worried.
Sad.
Happy.
Excited.
Most of all
PROUD.
As we were waiting to see daddy's plane take off into the sky blue air...I turned and saw this....
I walked to my son, my legs were barely functioning, and grabbed him in my arms. I held him. I let him cry. I told him everything was going to be fine. I told him that daddy was coming home again. I told him he needed to be brave like daddy.
Because our daddy is the bravest of the brave.
Standing there waiting for take off was excrushiating. It felt like eternity. My arms were jello from holding both my boys. My cheeks were cold from the fresh fall air blowing the tears that were rolling down them. And worst of all my boys and I were not the only ones in pain.
There were sobbs coming from all around me.
In that moment I felt guidence.
My mind went on to all those families that lost loved ones on that dreadful day.
The day my Justin gets to fight for.
All those 9 year old children who don't have mommies or daddies.
My heart went out to them.
It humbled me in a way, that made me feel like I could not only get through this, but do it with the most rewarding thought.
We get to stand up for those families! We get to stand up for our country!
So I thank my creator. My God.
For giving me the guidence, courage, and strength on that day. For letting me remember.
The day I sent my husband to war.
7 comments:
That is a beautiful post Sam! Made me cry, of course! That picture of Aydan is sweet...in a heartbreaking way! I am so glad that we were able to be there to see Justin off. And we can't wait for that wonderful day when we get to be there to welcome him home! Tuesday was full of tears, but a year from now when he gets home...that will be a day full of tears too! Tears of love and gratitude to your hero of a husband! We pray for Justin and your family everyday. With a loving Father in Heaven, you will be able to get through these next 13 months and it will seem as though Justin never left! We love you all! XOXO
you are such an inspiration!!! what a beautiful post, you have a wonderful way with words. don't forget that your family is in our prayers!!!
Wow Sam!! I am speechless with tears rolling down my cheeks!! I wish I could say something to comfort you right now, but just remember on those not so easy days, I am just a phone call away!! We are so proud of Justin and know he will be watched over!! Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings...I truly look up to you, your an amazing person! We LOVE you guys so much!!
I don't know what I expected Tuesday.
I know that it was tough, tougher than I expected, I guess.
What comforted me most was that we, our family, families, were not alone.
Nor will Justin be alone during his journey. Those young men and women will watch over each other. I was humbled like never before. It was like being awake during a dream. Like you would change the dream, if you could, but you can't, so time elapses. And you wake up and you go back to your life. And you wish you had been dreaming, but, of course, you weren't. And something has changed you. Forever. All in the time it takes hot coffee to become cold. What a morning...
Tears rolling down my cheeks once again. Justin is a hero for our country and you are truly a hero to me for being such an amazing and strong person through all of this. I know I wouldn't be able to be so strong. I'm kind of a wimp that way :) Hopefully we get to see you when you come down for Halloween. We'll have to have a fun party or something. You're in our thoughts and prayers!
You have a wonderful way with words how very touching. We all love Justin and your cute family, we will be there for you through this. Call us anytime. Love Brian and Tonya
You are just amazing and so strong. If I wasn't already bawling, that picture of Aydan would have done it. And you are so right about the pictures telling a story. You can really see how much love there is. Keep your chin up. This next year will fly. You are in our thoughts and prayers and if you ever need anything, we are here!
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